"pleasure isn't simple" Lyrics

the boys swore
to spite the chaperons, i danced cheek to cheek
sneak out at intermission, drink gin
or corn liquor with coke
neck
my breast pressed heavy
against a chest
harry
was an ice cream con-man
with the boys who muttered in small clusters
to _ or tap dance
we'd meet then go swimming
i'd sit under my sun umbrella
climb the high dive, show off some new steps
or imitate those i'd seen
i gave a damned good show
we'd wait all through the long afternoon
let the surface bend our __
i had the judge's reputation to protect me
he was never unkind, only remote
and though
my mother was 40 when i was born
she nursed me till i was 4.