Apologetic Lyrics

if my parents were here
if they could see me now
what would they say
what would they do
would they be proud
proud of me
would they be proud
proud of me

if I went back to that place
where it all fell apart
would I remember what it was like to
be a kid
do you think it would help me
be a better man
because right now I don't know
I don't know what I am

sitting in my room
staring at posters on my wall
people I look up to and respect
none of them are you
you were always there for me
I just never saw you
and now that you're gone
all I wanna say is sorry

sitting in my bed tonight
thinking of what to say
why do I always lie to you
there must be another way
staring at these medals
and pictures on my wall
I ignore the ones
that make me hurt and fall

I stopped trying to remember that day
where it all fell apart
but it's still very clear to me
how I broke your heart
you think I don't understand
you dont think that I see
all the time you've wasted on me
you've given up on me