Bastard Lyrics

Clothes on the floor still smell like her perfume
Said she'd never leave, packed and left before noon
Door slammed twice, I still hear it in my head
Left me in the cold, now I'm laying in her mess
Mirror's still fogged from the night she was crying
Said I'd wouldn't change, but at least I was trying
Empty bed, where we used to lie
Wish I could forget, but I can't stop asking "Why?"
Every word she said still echoes in my mind
Tried to hold on, but wе're both out of time
Walking through days, but they blur into onе
Used to feel alive, now I'm numb to the sun

Sitting in my dorm room
She calling me a "Bastard"
Disaster, disaster
It turned into disaster
Sitting in my dorm room
She calling me a "Bastard"
Disaster, disaster
It turned into disaster

Bottles on the dresser, haven't slept in weeks
Staring at the clock while the hours repeat
Every night's a blur, every morning feels worse
Know that I should stop, but I'm stuck in reverse
Drowning out the memories, but they still break through
Her voice in my head like it's stuck in a loop
Standing on the edge, don't know if I'll jump
Been writing my goodbyes, but I tear 'em all up
Said I'd move on, but I don't think that I can
Losing myself wasn't part of the plan
One more drink, I hope it makes me forget
But the more that I take, the closer that I get

Sitting in my dorm room
She calling me a "Bastard"
Disaster, disaster
It turned into disaster