Bitter Half Lyrics

well I'm trying to figure out
the things that I can't find
in my mind, so much time
the softest touch that eludesme somuch
and it's hard to play the games
that I'm consumed with everyday
I don't wanna say
what I wanna say
I bite my tongue again
all this life
with all its wasted time
the bitterness and the bitter half
I long to never know
my eyes see through shades of gray
now i'm starring at the wall
and this part of me will fall
I'll opened my eyes and I'll say good bye
to the side I long to hate
you can't distort my truth
please show me the proof
close my eyew and I'll say good bye
and finally started to grow