Blowing Out Every Light Sparkling Off My Heart Lyrics

So here I am dying lost in a world I can't comprehend.
The genealogy of my wounds is too easy to read but I know I can fucking heal.
Scared and bruised - broken but free
The bastard son won't come back home
So here I am choking with regrets stuffed in my throat
I have to swallow the blades on which I've always slept
This was the only (and lonely) way to freedom
Scared and bruised - broken but free
The bastard son won't come back home
So I'm walking on the cutting edge of a rusted world.
Now I know what pain is my feet bleed the sickest blood
But I feel secure and I smile because I know it's the last and only sacrifice
(I hit rock bottom but no one hears my bones breaking)
They told me that I'm free and they wrote it everywhere
but I know I'm not I can feel it in my guts
I'm so sick of being sick, so fucked up of being fucked up
I've got to find a way to get out of this shit - show me a way to get out of this shit
So I walk alone not knowing where I go, not knowing where I'll fall
For the first time I feel beautiful
"outside the dawn is breaking but inside in the dark I'm aching to be free"
Crossing every gap Burning every map I swear to never come back
Blowing out every light Sparkling off my own heart
Fuck you I'll never come back