But This Ain't Wonderland Lyrics

I guess it started when I was six
And too afraid to cross the street
Fear was always next to me
Too many feelings for a kid
Never wanted to be alone
Scared of being on my own
What if something went wrong
And nobody was close?

I got older
And it got even worse
When will this be over?
When will these thoughts go?

I fell down the rabbit hole
But this ain't Wonderland
Everything's out of control
This isn't what I planned
There's no one here
Just me, myself and I
The colors disappeared
I don't know why
But this ain't Wonderland

I still remember when I was nine
A little girl afraid to die
Had every sickness in my mind
I got obsessed, yeah, overnight
Knew I shouldn't have gone online
Still I did it day and night
I just wanna feel alright
And have a peaceful, lovely life
I got older
And it got even worse
When will this be over?
When will these thoughts go?

I fell down the rabbit hole
But this ain't Wonderland
Everything's out of control
This isn't what I planned
There's no one here
Just me, myself and I
The colors disappeared
I don't know why
But this ain't Wonderland

I know it's all in my head
I'm just gonna force myself
To scream these words out loud
I'm fucking safe and sound

I know it's all in my head
I'm just gonna force myself
To scream these words out loud
I'm fucking safe and sound

I fell down the rabbit hole
But this ain't Wonderland
Everything's out of control
This isn't what I planned
There's no one here
Just me, myself and I
The colors disappeared
I don't know why
But this ain't Wonderland
I know it's all in my head
I'm just gonna force myself
To scream these words out loud
I'm fucking safe and sound