Charred to Black Lyrics

I've waited so damn long.
There's nothing I came for here.
I can't believe I was wrong.
Not wanted anywhere.
Why can't you see deep inside?
All this pain that I've been left in!
Your stones have bruised up my eyes.
I'm ready to give in.

Don't tell me that I will be fine.
I'm sick of all of these lies.
I want the demons out my head.
But they're all who seem to care.
When the time starts to stand still.
I'll be asleep and I'll be peaceful.
Don't tell me I'm wrong.
Because I know I don't belong.

I'm losing control.
I'm failing myself.
I'm living so low.
Hit below the belt.
I'm losing control.
I just want it back.
I'm living so low.
I'm charred to black.

I've prayed every day.
For life to look up for me.
There's no reason to stay.
I've just been
Left for freezing!
I just want the good life.
But you won't let me have it.
So I'll shut up, I'll say goodnight.
And wait for my dark to happen.

This dark is perfect and sweet.
But I know when I break in three,
I'd section myself off to you.
And I know all that you'll do.
When I stand, I'm falling.
And when I smile, I'm balling.
All the damage is done.
Am I alone? Am I the only one?

I'm losing control.
I'm failing myself.
I'm living so low.
Hit below the belt.
I'm losing control.
I just want it back.
I'm living so low.
I'm charred to black.

(Break)

So what makes you think I'm a toy?
Treat me like a whipping boy.
A stray that followed me home.
Got attached, then left me alone.
Jab another pin in me.
My time is coming, time to leave.

(Break + Solo)

Searching no longer.
Losing all cares.
Fuck it all.
You made me.