Cry (To Keep From Laughing) Lyrics

I've been cruel and foolish
I've wandered in the darkness
I've mostly made mistakes there
Just ask the people that I take there
It would take a lifetime
Just begging for forgiveness
It's a messy business
Desperate and hopeless
And it makes me wanna cry
To keep from laughing
Makes me want to disappear
For weeks or months or even years
I used to keep my eyes shut
I was walking blind but I can see the light now
And it's a brutal, ugly sight now
I'll try to get it right, I know
Don't think I'll start tonight though
And it makes me wanna cry
To keep from laughing