Destroying What Is Lyrics

The past, however distant
Is there for all to see
The present, although less certain
Is visible to me
But the future is a door that's locked
And no one holds the key
The figure standing locked inside
Could loosely be called me

I've said "I could not feel much worse.
I've known such inner pain."
But, truth be told, what scares me most
Is not inside my brain
So when I am a thunderstorming orbit human stain
It's safe to say I've done my best
To throw my life away

Surreal pictures run through my head
Much akin to picture shows
They can't be described without allusions
To the days of old
Cunning celestial currents
Could be all that shape this life
So now how do I kill myself?
There's never been a knife