Disappear Lyrics

I need to disappear for a while
I wanna come back new
I can't have you see me like this
I'm not who you once knew
I can't go back there no more
And I can't stay here
So close your eyes, dear
While I try to disappear

I sleep a little longer these days
I won't pick up the phone
I watch a lot of foreign films
To make myself feel more alone
And I eat what I don't need
To make myself feel worse
And then I tip this bottle back
Bring out the next verse

I need to disappear for a while
I wanna come back new
I can't have you see me like this
I'm not who you once knew
I can't got back there no more
And I can't stay here
So close your eyes, dear
While I try to disappear

I rest my arm palm-up
To see my clean slate
And then I paint my red stripes on
With my razor blades
And then I lay my body down
For anyone to take
'Cause the cheaper I get, you see
The less I have to make

And I chew them pills up good
And I swallow hard
Throw my pen away
And I crawl in the car
And I drive faster, dear
From where you are
But I know I'm not going anywhere
When all I'm doing is
Trying to disappear