Faded Lyrics

Where the hell have I gone to
Why's it got to be so motherfucking hard for me to call you
Staying up late trying to get it all straight
Every minute I've wasted
You were probably thinking I don't want to
That ain't the case
15 years and that ain't the case
Bad as it tastes
I'm the one to blame for putting up all the walls and demanding the space
And I just can't take it these days
So far out
Want to bring it home but I don't know how
Yeah man I don't know how
Family could be something I don't know 'bout
And I pushed you that far cause I got scared
Would've been hell but I could've said prayers
Should've been there
And it's not okay
That your name is one thing I don't know how to say

Faded
Looking for the words that I could use to get to you
Don't know how to say it, faded
Hopefully it's getting through
Cause everything is faded
Looking for the words
I don't know how to say it, faded
Hopefully it's getting through
Because everything is, faded

Where the hell did you go to
Why'd you make it so motherfucking impossible to go through
Running on fumes
Trying to follow your tune
We were running around in circles
To the point that it was dangerous to know you
I could've reached out
15 years and I should've reached out
But I couldn't find the person I was looking for
Even if I did I was scared that you would have been underneath in the ground
And I ran from that
Ran from that
Too damn scared to take a chance with that
So the bogs got packed
Blood got cold
Names got changed and your kids got grown
Grown
Looking at the phone with a broken heart
Trying to keep a piece of what fell apart
Dark night and it's not okay
That your names one thing that I don't know how to say

Faded
Looking for the words that I could use to get to you
Don't know how to say it, faded
Hopefully it's getting through
Cause everything is faded
Looking for the words
I don't know how to say it, faded
Hopefully it's getting through
Because everything is, faded