I Always End Up Leaving. Lyrics

I don't know how to say things that I know are gonna hurt you
I don't know how to carry this burden but I still do
Growing up hasn't made much sence since I left school
Now I'm all alone in my room thinking, "How did I fuck this up again?"

'Cause when you're down, I'm not around
When you call for me, I turn down the sound
Instead of facing what I know, I turn away out of hope
That maybe someday I won't think of leavin'
When you need me

And I know you wonder how I spend my time
'Cause when you text me I take two days to reply
And I don't know why you won't leave me
The man I am is half of who I used to be

'Cause when you're down, I'm not around
When you call for me, I turn down the sound
Instead of facing what I know, I turn away out of hope
That maybe someday I won't think of leavin'
When you need me (Yeah, yeah)

I'm doubting myself
'Cause everything I said is in the past
That's the past
Thought that we were gonna last
We could've been happy ever after (Oh, no)
Now we're a disaster (Oh, no)
And I couldn't run away faster
'Cause I never could give you what you want
I tell myself that 'cause I don't know what I want (Hold up)
I need a lesson on self love
No, I don't need drugs
Now you're gone, I just really wanna see ya

'Cause when you're down, I'm not around
When you call for me, I turn down the sound
Instead of facing what I know, I turn away out of hope
That maybe someday I won't think of leavin'
When you need me

I always end up leaving
So where do you need me?
I always end up leaving (Yeah, yeah)
When you need me
(Hello?)