I Don't Know, Truthfully Lyrics

It's been too long since I've been apart, of anything, alas
It feels it always is, will I always be chasing more than that
More than this, my head's a mess
I can feel you inside my chest
I wish to be done with this, I'm sick of the side quests
And I don't know, truthfully
I really couldn't tell you
I like to think that I'll be okay, even if I can't chose
I'm wishing, and I'm watching
I hope for more than something
That brushes past, like everyone, I just want you to trust me
And hear me out, I'll hear you out
It's hopeless tryna change a cloud
They drift, or they break
Or they grey into rain
As the day turns to night
It is only me left in my sight
The road is clear, my brain is tired
I'd love a hand there at my side
I run away from myself, I hate the old version of me
I hate my old songs, my current ones, I wish to hit delete
I know that's not fair, and I can't let go
My rope is anchored down, there's story in this snow
The angel's made their mark, I can see their wings still glow
I sit here on the balcony, I wish for something more