I Don't Understand Lyrics

I retreatBy myself at the back of my brainI cannot seeWhat You're showing me through this painI have foundThat I have foundNothing for so long(chorus)I don't understandI don't need toI know You've a planYou will see throughIt is in Your handsI believe YouI say goodbyeI leave my loved ones far behindI'm askingWhy is this is the story of my lifeI have foundThat I have foundNothing for so long(chorus)I was only wonderingI've been trying to understandI know there is moreSo much more than I can see(chorus 2x)