Idiot Lyrics

I can not believe I'm really here
Soon I'll wake up and disappear
And you'll pretend to love me madly
Cause I want you so badly

And when you finally fall and touch the ground
You'll just pretend I'm not around
Until I kiss your lips so sadly
Cause I want you so badly

I wish that I could say that I don't care
You're broken past the point I can repair

I'm thinking my head might explode
just waiting here upon the shelf
And you can't love me back if you're too busy
trying to kill yourself

I'm taking my heart back with all its holes
and scars all over it
And then I'll probably give it back to you
Cause I'm an idiot

If I cut my heart out of my chest
Would you put it with all the rest?
Just wipe the knife and thank me kindly
Cause I want you so blindly

I wish that I could say that I don't care
You're broken past the point I can repair

I'm running out of reasons I've made up
For me to stick around
Cause how your living your life,
your next night spent might be underground

Sometimes you're like a hole I can't escape
I can't get out of it
And even if I could I'd fall back in
Cause I'm an idiot