I'm a Hospital Lyrics

I stared in the darkest corners just for fun, I took acid and confronted my own sanity and won, I sparked smoke signals with a broken shaving razor blade
And I spray painted "smash the state" on a corporate chain, and "fuck patriarchy" on the wall I pass by every day when I'm driving to work in the morning
And I get a little more excited each new day, a little more nostalgic every time somebody moves away, a little older each time my address changes
And I still get freaked out when I remember that the father of my sisters is the man that beat my mother and my, heart breaks for her and all of those times I heard her screaming

And I saw something staring from across the parking lot, I took pictures of my wooden ceiling fan because I though someone was sending me a message through it's orientation
And I found out secrets that I wasn't meant to know, and I feel guilty that I know you were molested but you're so inspiring to me and I wish I could thank you
And I don't worry anymore whether or not I am insane, I know that we've all got the same hearts and just slightly different brains, so why am I so scared to tell my male friends that I love them?
And I tried to be the pink ranger but my father he forbid it, I cried everyday in school and he just wanted me to quit it, I still have the letter he wrote to me after I tried to kill myself

And I get a little more excited each new day, a little more nostalgic every time somebody moves away, a little older each time my address changes
And I love every single second I'm alive and I wanna give you every single second til I die, I'm learning to believe that I am capable of being loved