I'm Not Getting Excited Lyrics

I'm not getting excited
'Cause the thrill isn't mine to invite in
Just the chill when I learn
That it's finally my turn
I have finally earned
My place in the urn
And I take a fall
But I keep my hands soft
I keep my body limp
And I move with the wind
I'll go where it bends
And let go of the expectation

I'm not getting excited
'Cause the light on my phone's got me hiding
When it flashes at night
It's the bringer of signs
I can see it through my eyelids
I know that it's time
And I hold it all
But I keep my hands soft
All the answering/asking
My thoughts are a rat-king
There's no point untangling
The thought from the action
I'm awake

But what is it like, the other side
Where all my vital signs aren't fading away
Violent dreams keep me awake
I wear the same face in the morning
A warning


I’m not getting excited
'Cause my fight and my flight are divided
And so I don't enthuse
Keep my grip on joy loose
And I wait for the news
With my feet in my shoes
And I lose it all
With one foot out the door
When I smile I lie
With my eye to the side
So I greet with goodbye
I greet with goodbye
Yeah, goodbye

But what is it like, the other side
Where all my vital signs aren't fading away
Violent dreams keep me awake
I wear the same face in the morning
A warning
A warning