My Decision Lyrics

I still hesitated To open up that door Behind that there was lying What I was always looking for My deep secret And both my fate But will you condemn me If I couldn't wait If you take me to task I'll take the blame Maybe it's inconceivable But I won't be ashamed To leave my original way Is not my style But I got rid of these words For a while If I knew my decision I would sleep calm And never be in despair What would I leave back If I dared To sit between two chairs I would sleep calm And never be in despair What would I leave back If I dared To sit between two chairs I'm not sure if it's day or night I can't see if sky's black or white and I don't know if it's wrong or right I only feel fate touched my side So many words With the same meaning From different sides But all they're gleaming My thoughts would hurt But I don't want that I would sleep calm If I knew my decision To leave my original way Is not my style But I got rid of these words For a while I didn't hesitate To open up that door Behind that there was lying What I was always looking for My deep secret And both my fate But will you condemn me 'cause I couldn't wait If I knew my decision I would sleep calm And never be in despair What would I leave back If I dared To sit between two chairs I would sleep calm And never be in despair If I knew my decision