Nightmare Being 19 Lyrics

I got this this crippling fear of being average in this perfect world
Like it's me versus all of these sexy and confident girls
I'm so awkward, embarrassing, everyone's on something
I'm such a loner in here
These bodies are paper thin, it makes me hate my skin
Wanna disappear

I'm honestly scared right now
I feel like a child left out
On my own being weird at the party
Everyone's kissing everybody
When is a politе time to leave?
Whеn did life escalate?
And when did my friends all change?
Now I don't recognise anybody
So damn lonely
It's a nightmare tryna be
It's a nightmare trying to be 19

Weird how I used to be happy dressed up as myself
Right now I'd pay to be just about anyone else
I'm red-faced and fumbling, the perfect mannequin
Model the thoughts of my peers
A copy and paste it girl, done trying to save the world
Just trying my best to fit in

I'm honestly scared right now
I feel like a child left out
On my own being weird at the party
Everyone's kissing everybody
When is a polite time to leave?
When did life escalate?
And when did my friends all change?
Now I don't recognise anybody
So damn lonely
It's a nightmare tryna be
It's a nightmare trying to be 19

I don't know what to do with this
Hanging on by my fingertips
I bet they all think I'm a freak
It's a nightmare tryna be
It's a nightmare trying to be 19
Everybody else got a plan
I don't even know who I am
Is there something wrong with me?
It's a nightmare tryna be
It's a nightmare tryna be 19