Suicide Isn't Cool Lyrics

I lay awake every night
I think about how easy it would be
Just to end my life
'Cause to you that would be alright
You don't care about me
You prefer I didn't even breathe
That way there'd be more air for all those people
Who are better than me
Who are smarter than me
Who deserve more than me
All those people...everybody
I am a waste of space
A fucking failure, a disgrace
And I know I don't belong in this place
So I take another minute to think about this
My finger's on the trigger and you're standing in the distance
You yell to me to think about all the people who would cry
And I walk right up to you and look into your eyes
And tell you to stop with all of these lies
The world is better off without my useless body
Doing nothing is my only hobby
I sit around all day and stare blankly at the TV screen
I'm more alive when I dream
Now who could miss someone like this?
All I caused in my life
Was pain and strife
So what if someone does miss me?
In the end it'll turn out to be
A lot less pain than I'd cause in the long run
'Cause I never seem to have any fun
My family members are just watching me rot away
Why should I continue living life this way?
I haven't even been outside since last May
That's why I'll end this agony today
And you'll never have to see this ugly face again
Just tell my parents that I still love them
And to give all my things away to my "friends"
The barrel of this gun is getting cozy with the back of my head
One pull of the trigger... my life reached its end ;_;