That's On Me Lyrics

Is this just gettin' older?
I can't get away from this rain
I'm statin' to think that it's me
And I wanna just create things
But the longer it takes, I feel drink up
Remember a day I've been sober
Not in a place to take blame
Any more way I might break
Tell me, do you feel the same?
Guess we all go the same way
I'm in a bit of a mess here
Count to ten and hope to disappear
I never did my homework
Could I have been more than this?
Findin' a way to exist within a world with no risk
Forcin' a shoe that won't fit
I spend most the days stoned
And makin' excuses for it
Sayin', "It'll help to write this"
But on the real, I'm tight-lipped
Shootin' the shot that I'll miss

And it's so far from it
Why the hell am I still here?

This is not the end of our lives
This is just a bump in the ride
And I know that it will be alright
And if it's nothin', we're fucked, aren't we?
I can't help myself but cry every time that I realise
Maybe I'll never find my smile
But who's to blame? Well, that's on me
Well, that's on me, well, that's on me

Now that the weather is colder
Nothin' is maskin' this pain
The summer was here, but won't stay
And we are inside, like, all day
Regrettin' the things that we say
And it takes a toll, yeah
The conversation won't end
Bein' a rock for your friends
Cracks in the surface don't mend
We only break, we don't bend
And you think it was so clear
But I can't see nothin' but the fear
I'm feelin' so bloated
Thinkin' the silent won't do
My ass will open up too
Lockin' myself in my room
Hopin' that this will end soon
And no one will notice
What I will put myself through
'Cause they will hate themselves too
Isn't it mad what we do?
Petendin' to win, but just lose

And it's so far from here
Why the hell am I still here?

This is not the end of our lives
This is just a bump in the ride
And I know that it will be alright
If it's nothin', we're fucked, aren't we?
I can't help myself but cry every time that I realise
Maybe I'll never find my smile
But who's to blame? Well, that's on me
Well, that's on me, well, that's on me

Too many things on my mind
To process moments of life
That, somedays, I lose my drive
And some, can't control the fire
I move where the things take time
But I'm not a patient guy
Maybe if I wait, I'll find
Resemblance and peace of mind

This is just gettin' older
Runnin' away from my past
Knowin' the comet won't last
Bein' a mouse in this grass
Feedin' the snakes behind us
And I'm searchin' for closure
But nothin' is healin' these scars
When I open up, they just laugh
Sayin' that they had just half
That nothin' will ever be dark

Is it new me, new year
Or just the same old blues fear?

This is not the end of our lives
This is just a bump in the ride
And I know that it will be alright
And if it's nothin', we're fucked, aren't we?
I can't help myself but cry every time that I realise
Maybe I'll never find my smile
But who's to blame? Well, that's on me
Well, that's on me, well, that's on me
Well, that's on me