The Only Way I Could Save Myself Now Is If I Start Lyrics

This debilitating cynicism leaves me throwing fists
blindly, unkindly I deliberately hide so that you can find me.
Unmentionable, the seeking of attention that we require,
and I impede my own libido with a silent fear of fire.
Hold me higher than your loved ones,
mask my bad intentions.
I wish I was as pure as my lustlessness suggested.

Go fall, I'll hold you back.
surround myself with your artifacts.
My mind wanders with a sense of urgency.
I watch you fade away from me.

I discreetly try to imbibe the origins of your resentment.
Above me you reside as I strive for mere acceptance.
Escaping dignity, I ruined the pedestals I built,
and bruised by your excuses I characteristically wilt,
condemned by a guilt that I can't abandon, I lessen to the floor.
I've derobed your more times with my eyes than you have with your paws.