This Past Year Lyrics

I think about it when I'm lying awake; I analyze every single mistake
Is it over, have I peaked cause I miss what I won't see
I thought about it this past year I was kicking back without one single fear
The truth is this is not L.A. and I can't give up that easily

I was only 16 and lost in the scene
Caught up in drama is how we got started and now
Years later there's a whole in my heart
And there's no one to blame but me
Why do I still believe?

Stop right there it's the end of the road for you but for me
I'm still kicking back with this new kid next to me
I lost faith, I lost respect; I think I need to get this off of my chest
I've said it before, I'll say it again; we've gotta work this out

17 and living the dream
Not a care in the world is how I got lost but now
Years later there's a whole in my heart
And there's no one to blame but me
Why do I still believe?

Yeah I told myself a million times before I wouldn't hold my breath
But I can muster up the strength to say goodbye
No not this time

And now I'm back on my feet and I'm feeling the heat
Of the Cali sky, makes me feel alive