To Be Held Lyrics

When I woke up this morning
My whole left arm was numb
After the toss and turning
Must've slept on it wrong

I took it as a chance to
Hold my own face for once
Self centered, desperate dance it's
It's like I had someone

I know I'm pathetic and projecting half the time
How I've had to compensate with friendships all my life
I know that I've acted without reason, without rhyme
'Cause it makes it easier to lie

And to say I'm not the problem
That my path will serve me well
'Cause what they have, is what I want
To have, and to be held

I can't afford the coffee, that I seek out each day
I'm in there way too often, the workers know my name
I take it as a chance to have someone tend to me
Pretend it's sunday morning, he brewed it just for me

I know I'm pathetic and projecting half the time
How I've had to compensate with friendships all my life
I know that I've acted out of anger, out of spite
'Cause it makes it easier to lie

And to say I'm not the problem
That my path will serve me well
'Cause what they have, is what I want
To have and to be held
To have and to be held
To have and to be held
To have and to be held

'Cause maybe I don't like going out
Maybe I just like kissing strangers
Maybe I never need a haircut
Just for my hair to be played with
I can't stand getting my nails done
But I like when they hold my hand
I feel like I'm just always searching for replacements for a man

I know I'm pathetic and projecting half the time
How I've had to compensate with friendships all my life
I know that I've acted out of grievance, out of pride
'Cause it makes it easier to lie

And to say I'm not the problem
That my path will serve me well
'Cause what they have, is what I want
To have and to be held
To have and to be held
To have and to be held
To have and to be held
To have and to be held